Terrified!!!!

I'm going to see my baby for the first time in 9yrs tomorrow.April and I are leaving tonite so we can get some rest in a hotel b4 we go visit her in the morning.I'm a nervous wreck.I had to tell her we were coming cause she had a breakdown Thurs. They told her she had a surprise visit coming and she thought it may be her dad and ended up cutting herself again.I wish I knew how to help my lil girl so she didn't feel that cutting was the only escape from reality.Don't worry I will have lots of pics when I get back.I'm so excited and nervous at the same time.The last time I saw her she was only 3yrs old.Yikes!!!!!They also told her that she was leaving this week and I don't have the heart to tell her she may be going back to her dads.I am going up to Arkansas to try and fight for her in court Tues. so please pray that it all works out in God's will.Well gotta get packed so I will be ready to leave.Oh,almost forgot to tell you the story of me trying to get my travel permit.I put in for it on Thurs.And Mike told me to call Fri. To see if I could get it instead of waiting till Mon. morn.I freaked out when I was told I was denied due to non payment of this months fees,a whole $18.I was livid.I had to rush to get up there and pay my fees so another supervisor could over ride the first denial.I was scared to death that I would not get to go.Okay I gotta run for real this time.Till Wed.Smile....and pray.