Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Helpless

Well today was not a great day at all.It all started with an email on myspace from my daughter stating that her step-mother slapped her 8 times and called her vulgar names.She also said that her dad is now feeding her through the bottom of the door,and not letting her have any of her things such as radio,tv,money she works for,etc..I then get a call from one of her friends telling me that she(the friend) has called CPS on Tori's dad and step-mom for the abuse that she is seeing on her.CPS calls the friend back to ask if she knew how to get in touch with Tori's biological mother(me).Turns out that my kids may be yanked out of their home and placed in foster care by the end of the week.CPS told the friend that even though my rights have been terminated that they can re-review me and I may be eligible to get them back.I'm soooo scared that this is gonna turn out the same way it did 9 yrs ago and my kids will still be in the environment their in or worse.My mind is racing so badly.My daughter wants to come live with me,however my boys want nothing to do with me since they have been fed so many lies about me and that i don't want nor love them.I want my kids more than anything in the world and I'm praying that this is Gods way of giving me that second chance with them.Dear Lord,I'm sooo scared and need guidence.My daughter is terrified of her father since as soon as he hears the message on their machine he will know it was done because of her and the way she is treated.If you have any advice or thoughts,please give them to me.